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Fairytale
'cause I don't care for your fairytales You're so worried about the maiden though you know She's only waiting on the next best thing Snow White is doing dishes again cause What else can you do With seven itty-bitty men? Sends them to bed and calls up a friend Says will you meet me at midnight? The tall blonde lets out a cry of despair says Would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair I'll have to find another tower somewhere and keep away from the windows

Hello there, all you have to know is that I'm going on seventeen and that I bite.
I like school a lot because of my very hyper/funny classmates, tablemates especially.
Flipping and being out of gravity's reach momentarily gives me a thrill sometimes.
I love being in planes too cause its something I rarely experience.
And I've figured that though the Earth may be trembling, all is fine.
So, there's enough rambling.
I hope you have something to tag about with regards to my posts!

And love me,
for I am phenomenal. ♥

Sunday, April 29, 2007,10:03 am

sorry people.
sorry about yesterday.
sorry for what i said.
sorry for what i did.

i was just getting stressed.
and stubborn.
for the first time in my life,
i heard a news
that made me refuse to believe it.

but now i do.
people.
believe it.
fong is leaving.
fong is migrating.
fong is going away.
fong is going to disappear.
from our lives.
IN A MONTH.

when liv told me.
i refused to believe it.
i REFUSED.
then she started crying,
while stubborn me just shook my head.
again and again.
then.
she tried to make me believe.
and i got so pissed.
so disbelieving.
so stressed.
that i felt that i was in a fantasy.
in a dream.
and in bisbelief,
i went like.
STOP IT.
I DONT BELIEVE IT.
NOT UNTIL I HEAR IT FROM HER.
NOT UNTIL I SEE HER.
NOT UNTIL THE TIME SHE TOLD ME PERSONALLY.
and i logged off.
and that was how
i appeared offline
for the whole day.

michelle.
that was what i was avioding.
the ugly truth
the heavy 20 pound sledge hammer
that is going to crush me.
i dont believe it.
i really dont.
but i have to.
i am forced.
fong is going.
and she is leaving me,
and her life,
and her friends,
to taiwan,
the faraway place
that i wont see her again.
unless she comes and visit?
which is like.
a few times a year?
when i've grown acustomed
to seeing her at least 5 times a week.

i thought,
yesterday,
that if i refuse to believe it.
that if i made her feel guilty
that if i am angry enough with her
she will be able to stay
that i will be able to MAKE her stay
that i will be able to keep her in singapore.
but it wont work.

and rather than making both of us unhappy
why not spend it happily?
why not spend it with fun
with laughter
and leave with a happy mind
instead of sadness
and tears.

we can still communicate cant we.
and its tougher for her,
to talk in chinese (POOR HER)
to get new friends
to have a new school
to have a new uniform (WHICH I HOPE WONT BE THAT BAD)
to have a new life.
all i have to do
is to get used to her not being here in a month.
but she has to do loads
and its just 1 friend for me
while its MANYMANYMANY friends for her
including her relationships
her teammates
her life
her schoollife.

"climb into one's skin and walk all around in it."
i am going to do it.
i am going to understand.
i am going to sympathise with her.
i am going to spend a happy month with her.
i am not going to cry.
i am not going to shed tears.
i am not going to let her leave for taiwan with sadness.
(OH GOD. I MAKE IT SOUND AS THOUGH SHES DYING. -.-)

CHEER UP FONG!!
AND OUR FIRST STOP TO HAPPINESS IS ICE SKATING TOMORROW!
and im REALLY going to kill you
if you dont come. ;D