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Fairytale
'cause I don't care for your fairytales You're so worried about the maiden though you know She's only waiting on the next best thing Snow White is doing dishes again cause What else can you do With seven itty-bitty men? Sends them to bed and calls up a friend Says will you meet me at midnight? The tall blonde lets out a cry of despair says Would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair I'll have to find another tower somewhere and keep away from the windows

Hello there, all you have to know is that I'm going on seventeen and that I bite.
I like school a lot because of my very hyper/funny classmates, tablemates especially.
Flipping and being out of gravity's reach momentarily gives me a thrill sometimes.
I love being in planes too cause its something I rarely experience.
And I've figured that though the Earth may be trembling, all is fine.
So, there's enough rambling.
I hope you have something to tag about with regards to my posts!

And love me,
for I am phenomenal. ♥

Saturday, March 31, 2007,11:32 pm

Jeanne. this is from THAT treasured friend of mine.

"heyy
i actually wanted to post to let out my frustration of the incident on thurs.
i actually forgot alre
but when ping zheng told me that qh and pl complained to her abt me (which is expected)
but it kinda reminded me
so im frustrated again.

i know my attitude sucks sometimes
but you can at least try to understand
when im like that
means that im supposed to be left alone
and can you try to understand my feelings
and not jump to stereotype me
it makes me very irritated to know that you not only did not understand yet did not at least TRY to.
and even if you didnt
you would at least know that something has happened to me to make me like that
and that you would not bad mouth me and say that im F***ing irritating
i thought that as a good friend
you would see the warning signs and know that i've alre exploded
but NO
u remain oblivious
or choose not to
i thought i knew you
sadly i realised that i dont
i seen through you
and your biased-ness.
you think im going to tolerate you forever?
im not
and when i explode again and this incident repeats itself
the separation is permanant
if you read this
you will probably just think its thrash
and say you dont care
but see how i react in school on monday
you will understand."

I DIDNT KNOW SHE WAS STRESSED.
I DIDNT STEREOTYPE HER.
I DID TRY TO UNDERSTAND HER.
I TRIED TO BEAR WITH HER COLDNESS,
I TRIED TO BREAK THE ICE BETWEEN MY MOST TREASURED FRIEDNS.

I DIDNT EVEN KNOW SHE WAS EMO-ING AFTER ART.
I JUST WENT OFF WITH PNG LINCAUSE SHE LOOKED BUSY.
I DID WAIT FOR HER IN CLASS.
I JUST SAW HER COME IN WITH THAT HATRED LOOK OF HERS.
I DIDNT KNOW SHE THOUGHT THIS WAY.
I DIDNT KNOW I WAS BEING BIASED IF I ACTED THIS WAY.

I DIDNT KNOW.
I DIDNT KNOW.
I DIDNT KNOW.

NOW THAT I KNOW, IS IT STILL MY FAULT?

ALL I KNOW IS,
IM HURT. IM DEEPLY HURT.
MY 2 MOST TREASURED FRIENDS THAT UNDERSTOOD ME PERFECTLY,
ONE HAD LEFT ME.
AND THIS LUMP IN MY THROAT NOW,
THE TEARS THAT IS BLINDING ME NOW,
IS NOT ENOUGH FOR ME TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS.
IM SORRY.
IM SO SORRY THAT I DIDNT UNDERSTAND YOU.
IM SO SORRY THAT I WAS THOUGHTLESS.
IM SO SORRY THAT I COULDNT SEE, THAT I WAS SO BLINDED.

NOW ALL I WANT TO KNOW IS,
IS THIS MY FAULT?

NOW ALL I WANT IS,
FOR YOU TO BE MY FRIEND AGAIN.

OH GOD.
OH JEANNE.
MY SO EVER WISE JEANNE.
help me.